It's your party so cry if you want to. geez.

So crying. We all cry sometimes, it's inevitable. What i am trying to fathom is why many do it so much. I think it is fascinating to observe the many ways in which individuals regard crying. Some HATE cry, or say they hate crying but do it a lot. Others claim to cry all the time. Some don't have a problem with crying. Other people just really try hard not to cry.

Well pretty sure i fit the try really hard not to cry group. I avoid it at all costs. Most of the time I can stop myself from crying. But the circumstances under which i cry boggle my mind. I cry when I'm mad. I mean raging. I'm not going to lie, that has to be the absolute worst time to cry. Seriously! If someone upsets you not by offending you to sadness, but by straight up pissing you off, you don't want to give them the satisfaction of crying!!! That is worse than a puppy rolling over on his belly with his tongue sticking out.

The other time of course would be at stupid country music videos. Eff. And movies. Even then i try to hide behind a pillow and swallow that softball that is pervading my throat. Two tears from one eye and one from another and I'm finitio. I guess that is something i am grateful for, that i don't cry for long. People say 'just let it out' and 3 tears is my quota. Kinda strange, not typical but it happens.

Ok but I have a problem when dudes cry. I feel like this magical role reversal just occurred and I'm the awkward boy trying to comfort the girl who is seemingly crying for no reason. I mean of course there are times to cry- absolutely! Big boys cry too. It is just insanely strange for me.

Now when you have the boys that cry all the time that just weirds me out. I pretty much run the other way. I just don't know how to handle it! The only thing i can think to say is 'suck it up man' with a clap on the back.

So my dilemma is, well being the dude. I haven't cried in front of a boy for.. almost two years now. Why do I know this? Because A. It was completely legit for me to cry B. I hate crying in front of people C. I REALLY hate crying in front of guys. Don't worry it only lasted like 3 minutes max, but my pride took a hit, I'm awfully prideful.. Yikes. But anyway moral of the story: Crying is necessary, even for dudes but limit it to semi-annually and it's good.