Missing you like crazy.

Do you ever miss people even when they aren't necessarily gone? This strange phenomenon has finally caught up with me.

It is most prevalent to me with this certain individual, who although they are not far from me, and it would be so easy to talk to them, i can't. I miss them so much my heart hurts. I think about all the time we used to spend together and how we used to confide in one another. I think about all the laughter and tears we shared, inside jokes etc, and i really miss them. I have tried to restore this relationship, but i don't think they want to. It hurts my pride, but my heart even more, because all I can do it pray and hope they come around and realize that they need me. But I'm afraid they won't and it scares the living hell out of me. I'm not one to just spout off like this but I can't pretend it doesn't matter to me, or that it doesn't affect me. This person is one of the few that I never thought I would lose, but I know that I have, at least temporarily and it is doing nothing short but driving me mad. Come back. I'll forgive and forget if you can simply understand. At least pretend you care.

Moving on, it is so important to realize what we have, and to not take it for granted. I know that moms around the United States uttered at some point to every one of their children that 'some kid in Ethiopia (or Africa, depends on how geographically inclined your mom is (whaaaaat)) would love to have your ____". Blank is interchangeable with spinach, food, toy, sister, house, opportunities, etc.
Don't be afraid to love your friends, your family, and even if only for a second remember all the blessings that you have been given. Let them know if you can't say love that you appreciate them, and that you notice what they do. It makes a world of difference.
Now that I'm off my soapbox... i know i am a guilty party. I don't do it enough. I can't even think about what would happen if....
It is so morose to me, and simply is too real in my mind to even about, i can't entertain the thought for long- but I'm working toward it.
Just, ya know something to consider.